This is a cry for help.

Hey you!

I ‘m not going ask how are you….

I know, life has not being easy on you lately. Lately? let’s be honest, life hasn’t being easy on you since you remember, right?!

You feel traped in this road you took, you feel like you have to fight every day, that the world is agaisnt you and you are fighting alone, with no good outcome, by no means.

I am not going to lie to you ,girl, life is going to be like this for a while. This rebelious feeling, this anger and loneliness you feel will follow you wherever you go, and, no matter how hard you try to shake this off, it will never work out.

I know, you tried a little bit of everything you could reach. You bought the lie that your anger somehow could change the world. That if you pointed it in the right direction and fight hard, it will change things for good. Guess what? It didn’t work. Just lies.

You also believed that women could have it all. They said that, if you tried with the right posture and mindset, you could reach the sky. Basically, it was anger and revolt all over again, telling you to play by your own rules. If it worked for so mamy men, it would work out for your, right? haha, sure.

They said that freedom was to satisfy your every desire. That your thirst for connection and approval, your always hungry lust could be met if you just went down all the way ,try it all, no shame, no limits. After all, this sense of value and self-worth is for losers. They told that. Here there is no walls or signs that says “stop”. The world is an open field. No rules, ma’am.

Then, after you realized that none of those fake products and false ideologies worked, you just tried to go throguh life numbed. Maybe some fun, some artificial hapiness could help, with the add of some drugs and alcohol, of course. Yes, it pretended to work for a while. But whenever you was sober and alone, the conscious of an empty life hit you again.

There was no scape, no easy way out. Life seemed like a dead-end and you were facing it alone, or at least, it felt like it. So, where to run to?

Deep down you knew the answer. You had learned it a long time ago, you just didn’t believe it. It never seemed to work before, anyway. So outworn and boring, right? You were used to life in your own terms. However, it was not working , wasn’t it?

Ok, so you decided to try. Just one shot, after all, you have nothing to loose. You are already empty, have nothing to hold on to. Just one shot.

How to start? You didn’t talk to him for so long. I mean, you don’t even know him for sure but, people say it works, that he is the one we shoud talk to, when everything else failed. And let’s be real, everything had FAIL, it failed hard on you. Only disappointments. What a waste!

This is your only and last chance. Pride never helped you anyways, quite the contrary. This liar only took you to blind alleys, always sabotaged your plans, enough with pride. So you try it:

“Hey God….so, I don’t know if you know me or if you are listening right now but…well, I really need your help down here. I messed up. I messed up big time. I tried everything I could, I bought what they offered me. It was all empty packages after all, only sales talk. Nothing is really working for me. So I was thinking…. can I try your way this time? I don’t know if you are really there but, if you are listening, please….I really need some help here. I give up.”

That was it. I had no one to run to, untill I remembered. There was someone, someone from a distant past. Someone I never bother to really know personally, but deep down, I knew. I knew he could help me. So I tried, I bet my last imaginary coins on him( ‘cause, honestly, I had nothing, this world empited me out).

All I had to offer was a poor, bad articulated prayer. And He listened, He always listens.

The interesting thing about God is that, He is not prideful like us. He does not keep a record of our mistakes to rub it in our faces. He is open to new begginings. All He’s ever wanted from us is an open and honest heart. An honest cry for help. Like we are recogninzing that we failed and we need a new start, fresh. No loooking back.

So, dear me from the past, life was tough on you, I know. So many knock outs and traps and dead ends. The good news is: Those was just some chapters of your life. The best is yet to come, don’t give up. You Father is really amazing and he has a lot of good suprises for you! Keep marching, don’t give up. You have so much life to enjoy ahead. God is faithful! He is your rescuing knight in a shining armor! s2

“Long enough, God—
you’ve ignored me long enough.
I’ve looked at the back of your head
long enough. Long enough
I’ve carried this ton of trouble,
lived with a stomach full of pain.
Long enough my arrogant enemies
have looked down their noses at me.

Take a good look at me, God, my God;
I want to look life in the eye,
So no enemy can get the best of me
or laugh when I fall on my face.

 I’ve thrown myself headlong into your arms—
 I’m celebrating your rescue.
I’m singing at the top of my lungs,  I’m so full of answered prayers